Turb\u016bt kiekvienas turime kok\u012f nors slapt\u0105, tik sau pateisinam\u0105 dalyk\u0105, kur\u012f m\u0117gstame atlikti u\u017e u\u017edar\u0173 dur\u0173. Ji \u2013 ne i\u0161imtis.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kai visi u\u017emiega, v\u0117lai vakare namus apgaubia tyla. Ji ry\u017etasi paaukoti kelias valandas miego d\u0117l \u0161ios akimirkos \u2013 kai gali pagaliau i\u0161leisti i\u0161 sav\u0119s dalel\u0119 sav\u0119s.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ji \u012fsitaiso virtuv\u0117je, ant k\u0117d\u0117s prie lango, kur sklinda maloni radiatoriaus \u0161iluma. Ant stalo, \u017einoma dega \u017evak\u0117. Greta – puodelis melis\u0173 ir levand\u0173 arbatos. Nusimauna \u0161lepetes, susikelia kojas ant kr\u0117slo. U\u017esimerkia, kelis kartus giliai \u012fkv\u0117pia ir i\u0161kv\u0117pia. Ima knyg\u0105. Kur\u012f laik\u0105 akimis klaid\u017eioja po puslapius, ie\u0161kodama ka\u017eko, kas prakalbint\u0173. O gal tiesiog ie\u0161ko ties kur baig\u0117 skaityti. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Staiga akys sustoja ties eilute:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eJis dirba, nes taip reikia. Bet tro\u0161kimas \u0161aukte \u0161aukia, kad reikia ne dirbti \u2013 o gyventi.\u201c<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n (A. \u0160k\u0117ma, \u201eBalta drobul\u0117\u201c)<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n O k\u0105 rei\u0161kia gyventi jai? Ar egzistuoja kokia formul\u0117, parodanti gyvenimo sudedam\u0105sias? Ar s\u0105ra\u0161as, kur\u012f b\u016bt\u0173 galima pasid\u0117ti ant \u0161aldytuvo? Ar ji gyvena ar dirba?<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201eMama!\u201c \u2013 i\u0161 kitapus sienos nuaidi vaiko balsas.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Po galais\u2026 Ir b\u016btent dabar, kai buvo toks daug \u017eadantis pasiruo\u0161imas.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Kas nutiko? Tik sapnas, sako ji, glostydama ma\u017e\u0105 galvyt\u0119. Tik sapnas. Apkloja, pritemdo \u0161vies\u0105.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Prie\u0161 u\u017edarant duris pa\u017cvelgia \u012f vaiko rankyt\u0119, u\u017emerktas akis. Susig\u0117sta. Juk jis nieko neturi tik mane. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Ir v\u0117l jos tro\u0161kimas susid\u016br\u0117 kaktomu\u0161a su jos pareiga. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Ji gr\u012f\u017eta \u012f virtuv\u0119. Keletas eilu\u010di\u0173 ir ji u\u017ever\u010dia knyg\u0105. Neb\u0117ra skonio.<\/p>\n\n\n\n K\u0105, ir viskas? Tiek pasiruo\u0161imo, tiek laukimo \u2013 ir viskas?<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ji s\u0117di dar kelias minutes, klausosi, kaip tiksi laikrodis. Tas \u017eavesys, tas jaudulys, kuris lydi moter\u012f prie\u0161 pasimatym\u0105 su mylimuoju \u2013 ka\u017ekur i\u0161garavo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n O kur mylimasis? \u2013 \u0161m\u0117steli mintis.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Pirm\u0105 kart\u0105 per vis\u01ce dien\u0105 ji prisimena, kad turi vyr\u0105. Toks ir \u201emylimas\u201c, pasakytum, jei apie j\u012f galima pamir\u0161ti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ji atsid\u016bsta. U\u017egesina \u017evak\u0119.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ji pri\u0117m\u0117 sprendim\u0105.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Visur tamsu, tik naktin\u0117s lemput\u0117s palei grindis nulydi j\u0105 \u012f miegamaj\u012f. Ji girdi jo kv\u0117pavim\u0105. \u0160velniai prisiglaud\u017eia, u\u017emerkia akis.<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u0160\u012fvakar tro\u0161kimas i\u0161nyko, bet nepaliko tu\u0161tumos. Ji pajunta: ne visada tai, ko labiausiai nori, maitina labiausiai. O kaip \u017einoti, kas \u017emogui geriausia? <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Turb\u016bt kiekvienas turime kok\u012f nors slapt\u0105, tik sau pateisinam\u0105 dalyk\u0105, kur\u012f m\u0117gstame atlikti u\u017e u\u017edar\u0173 dur\u0173. Ji \u2013 ne i\u0161imtis. Kai visi u\u017emiega, v\u0117lai vakare namus apgaubia tyla. Ji ry\u017etasi paaukoti kelias valandas miego d\u0117l \u0161ios akimirkos \u2013 kai gali pagaliau i\u0161leisti i\u0161 sav\u0119s dalel\u0119 sav\u0119s. 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