Vis da\u017eniau pagalvoju apie \u0161it\u0105 fraz\u0119 prie\u0161 u\u017emigdama. Kartais atrodo, kad vos lov\u0105 pasiekiu… Atsiguli ir galvoji: kod\u0117l jau\u010diuosi tokia be j\u0117g\u0173? Juk dar nor\u0117jau vaikams paskaityti, su vyru ramiai pasikalb\u0117ti, pati ka\u017ek\u0105 nuveikti \u2013 bet k\u016bnas ir galva jau sako \u201ene\u201c. Pavargusi. Nuolat pavargusi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ilg\u0105 laik\u0105 maniau, kad \u010dia tik mano b\u016bsena, mano \u201eproblema\u201c. Bet kuo daugiau bendrauju su \u017emon\u0117mis, tuo da\u017eniau gird\u017eiu t\u0105 pat\u012f: nuolatinis nuovargis vargina kone kiekvien\u0105. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ir tada prad\u0117jau galvoti \u2013 gerai, o kas b\u016bt\u0173, jeigu kas nors, kas valdo \u0161it\u0105 pasaul\u012f, tiesiog panaikint\u0173 nuovarg\u012f? Jeigu tur\u0117tume dar vien\u0105 porcij\u0105 energijos, tarsi antr\u0105 bandym\u0105.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ar diena b\u016bt\u0173 kitokia? K\u0105 tada veiktume?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ar i\u0161 tikr\u0173j\u0173 i\u0161naudotume t\u0105 papildom\u0105 laik\u0105 taip, kaip dabar svajojame?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ar tik dar labiau prisikrautume papildom\u0173 reikal\u0173, nor\u0173, plan\u0173?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sakoma, kad \u017emogus prie\u0161 mirt\u012f da\u017enai suvokia, kad gal\u0117jo gyventi kitaip: daugiau investuoti \u012f santykius, daugiau daryti prasming\u0173 dalyk\u0173. Bet tas suvokimas ateina tik tada, kai ai\u0161ku, kad \u201eantro karto\u201c jau nebebus. Man atrodo, su nuovargiu yra ka\u017ekas labai pana\u0161aus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Jeigu mes visai nejaustum\u0117m nuovargio, ar apskritai suvoktume, kad mums ka\u017eko tr\u016bksta? Kad norim giliau, o ne pavir\u0161iumi plaukti? Ar tiesiog lakstytume vis grei\u010diau, vis daugiau, vis pla\u010diau, niekada nestodami ir nesusim\u0105stydami?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nuovargis, nors ir nemalonus, tarsi priver\u010dia mus ie\u0161koti prioritet\u0173. Jis primena, kad negali b\u016bti visur ir visiems. Kad ka\u017ek\u0105 turi rinktis, o ka\u017eko \u2013 atsisakyti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u010cia man i\u0161lindo prisiminimas i\u0161 mokyklos.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ateini \u012f pamok\u0105 nepasiruo\u0161\u0119s, nei\u0161mok\u0119s, nam\u0173 darb\u0173 nepadar\u0119s. Mokytoja vaik\u0161to pir\u0161tu per dienyn\u0105, skaito pavardes, o tu viduje kartoji:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eTik ne mane\u2026 tik ne mane\u2026 a\u0161 kitai pamokai tikrai i\u0161moksiu\u2026\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ir k\u0105 \u2013 t\u0105 dien\u0105 tav\u0119s nei\u0161sirenka. Palengv\u0117jimas. Bet kit\u0105 dien\u0105 darai t\u0105 pat\u012f. V\u0117l nepasiruo\u0161\u0119s, v\u0117l meldiesi, kad tik praeit\u0173 pro \u0161al\u012f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pana\u0161iai ir su nuovargiu:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eDuok man, pra\u0161au, j\u0117g\u0173, daugiau j\u0117g\u0173, tada a\u0161 tikrai sutvarkysiu savo gyvenim\u0105.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Gauni truput\u012f daugiau j\u0117g\u0173 \u2013 ir k\u0105 darai? Dar daugiau prisikrauni: dar \u0161it\u0105, dar ten reikia, dar \u010dia negaliu atsisakyti. Pasaulis pilnas galimybi\u0173, pasi\u016blym\u0173, veikl\u0173, ir mes vis bandome visur sp\u0117ti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bendraudama su skirtingais \u017emon\u0117mis vis da\u017eniau gird\u017eiu nostalgij\u0105 \u201etiems laikams\u201c, kai, neva, buvo daugiau laiko literat\u016brai, muzikai, menui, mokslui. Tokiam \u0161varesniam, ramesniam laikui. Gal romantizuojame praeit\u012f, a\u0161 ne\u017einau \u2013 nesu istorik\u0117. Bet viena ai\u0161ku: tada buvo ma\u017eiau triuk\u0161mo ir ma\u017eiau pasirinkim\u0173.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Jeigu parduotuv\u0117je buvo vienos r\u016b\u0161ies batai \u2013 tai ir nor\u0117jai t\u0173 vien\u0173 bat\u0173.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dabar turime t\u016bkstan\u010dius variant\u0173: k\u0105 apsirengti, k\u0105 valgyti, kur eiti, su kuo eiti. Kiekvien\u0105 dien\u0105 priimame \u0161imtus ma\u017e\u0173 sprendim\u0173 \u2013 ir tai ryja energij\u0105. Did\u017eioji dalis j\u0173 n\u0117ra apie malonum\u0105, o apie pareig\u0105: \u201ereikia\u201c, \u201eprivalau\u201c, \u201enegaliu neiti\u201c.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ir \u010dia man v\u0117l prad\u0117jo suktis galvoje tema apie pareig\u0105 ir vidinius tro\u0161kimus.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kuo labiau mano pareigos nesutampa su tuo, ko a\u0161 i\u0161 tikr\u0173j\u0173 noriu, tuo labiau jau\u010diuosi pavargusi. Kai neturiu atsakymo \u201ekod\u0117l a\u0161 tai darau\u201c, dingsta vidin\u0117 motyvacija, ir viskas tampa sunkiu tempimu. Noriu b\u016bti visai kitur, daryti visai k\u0105 kit\u0105, bet gyvenimas reikalauja savo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bet ar i\u0161eitis \u2013 tiesiog pab\u0117gti ir daryti tik tai, ko noriu?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kartais gyvenime taip ir darome: ignoruojame tai, kas \u201ereikia\u201c, ir \u012fsijungiame tik \u201enoriu\u201c. Bet greitai pamatai, kad ir ten kuras baigiasi. Net tai, kas labai patinka, vien\u0105 dien\u0105 ima nebene\u0161ti. V\u0117l pavargsti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tai kur tas balansas? Kur ta pusiausvyra tarp \u201eturiu\u201c ir \u201enoriu\u201c?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kol kas viena mintis, kuri man atrodo verta laikymo, yra tokia:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
gal nereikia bandyti nuovargio i\u0161trinti i\u0161 gyvenimo. Gal jis n\u0117ra m\u016bs\u0173 prie\u0161as. Gal jis yra palydovas ir pagalbininkas \u2013 tas, kuris laiku priver\u010dia sustoti, atsisijoti, perm\u0105styti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Lygiai taip pat, kaip gyvenime yra baim\u0117, pavydas, pyktis \u2013 \u017eod\u017eiai su \u201eneigiamais\u201c lipdukais. Bet jeigu juos nukreipi \u012f \u017emogaus vystym\u0105si, jie tampa signalais, kryptimis, judesiu \u012f priek\u012f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Gal nuovargis irgi yra i\u0161 tos pa\u010dios serijos.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ne tam, kad mus sutrai\u0161kyt\u0173, o tam, kad nei\u0161sibarstytume.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kad i\u0161dr\u012fstume pagaliau sau pasakyti:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eA\u0161 negaliu visko. Tad k\u0105 tikrai pasirenku?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Vis da\u017eniau pagalvoju apie \u0161it\u0105 fraz\u0119 prie\u0161 u\u017emigdama. Kartais atrodo, kad vos lov\u0105 pasiekiu… Atsiguli ir galvoji: kod\u0117l jau\u010diuosi tokia be j\u0117g\u0173? Juk dar nor\u0117jau vaikams paskaityti, su vyru ramiai pasikalb\u0117ti, pati ka\u017ek\u0105 nuveikti \u2013 bet k\u016bnas ir galva jau sako \u201ene\u201c. Pavargusi. Nuolat pavargusi. Ilg\u0105 laik\u0105 maniau, kad \u010dia tik mano b\u016bsena, mano \u201eproblema\u201c. 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