Ka\u017ekam \u017eodis ,,skraidymas\u201d siejasi su sportu,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
adrenalinu ar kelion\u0117mis,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ta materiali\u0105ja prasme,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
bet man, b\u016bnant tokiai itin atsargiai,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
bijan\u010diai auk\u0161\u010dio, kaip katinas vandens,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
skraidymas vyksta kasdien visi\u0161kai kitokiu,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
niekam nematomu b\u016bdu:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
i\u0161or\u0117je mano laikysena i\u0161lieka tokia pati – <\/p>\n\n\n\n
atsipalaidavusi nugara,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
rankos visada ka\u017ek\u0105 laiko, suka, judina,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
galva lengvai linksi,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
pademonstruodama, kad gird\u017eiu, kad a\u0161 \u010dia,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kad a\u0161 palaikau,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
o ar tai tiesa, \u017einau tik a\u0161,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nes da\u017enu atveju<\/p>\n\n\n\n
k\u016bnas elgiasi tik kaip gerai i\u0161dresuotas gyv\u016bnas,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
paklusniai atliekantis veiksmus,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nereikalaujan\u010dius mano vidinio \u012fsitraukimo,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
tik akys i\u0161duoda<\/p>\n\n\n\n
sustingusios lyg<\/p>\n\n\n\n
stov\u0117\u010diau virtuv\u0117je su \u0161auk\u0161tu rankoje,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kol sriuba jau b\u0117ga per kra\u0161tus,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
o a\u0161 vis dar ka\u017ekur ne \u010dia,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kad viduje a\u0161 v\u0117l skraidau,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
skraidau tarp to, kas man svarbu,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
skraidau tarp to ko noriu,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ir to, k\u0105 privalau padaryti<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ar kiti mano, jog turiu padaryti,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ir kartais tas atstumas tarp abiej\u0173<\/p>\n\n\n\n
pasidaro toks neapr\u0117piamas,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kad manyje \u012fvyksta nei\u0161vengiamas sprogimas,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
pabudinantis ir kvie\u010diantis gyventi i\u0161 tikr\u0173j\u0173,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nes kuris \u017emogus nor\u0117t\u0173 ilgiau nei valand\u0105<\/p>\n\n\n\n
lieti ant sav\u0119s kar\u0161t\u0105 vandens srov\u0119<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ir jausti, kaip k\u016bnas kovoja u\u017e save,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
arba bandyti atrasti,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kaip i\u0161 naujo kv\u0117puoti,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nes kai ka\u017ekas kr\u016btin\u0117je u\u017espaud\u017eia taip stipriai,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kad nebesi tikras,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ar i\u0161vis dar moki tu kv\u0117puoti,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ir ta baim\u0117 v\u0117l ir v\u0117l patirti,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kaip srov\u0117 nune\u0161a tavo gyvast\u012f,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
tavo gyvenimo prasm\u0119,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ta baim\u0117 ver\u010dia nor\u0117ti i\u0161mokti<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kontroliuojamai skraidyti:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
leisti sau kilti laisvai,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
bet sustoti nuskridus per toli,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nes kai skrendu viena,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
per da\u017enai pakylu ne auk\u0161tyn,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
o tik tolyn nuo sav\u0119s,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ir toks skrydis galiausiai<\/p>\n\n\n\n
baigiasi ne laisve,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
o sprogimu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Gerai,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
atmetus mano nor\u0105 visk\u0105 truput\u012f dramatizuoti,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
mano gyvenime b\u016bna ir<\/p>\n\n\n\n
skrydis lengvas, malonus,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
tarsi gerti arbat\u0105 kieme,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
jausti, kaip gomur\u012f kutena vienas kitas<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u010diobrelio lapelis ar \u012fkritusi mus\u0117,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
pajusti v\u0117j\u0105,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0161velniai tave stumteliant\u012f<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ar\u010diau kito \u017emogaus \u0161irdies,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
tarsi tas trumpas kontaktas<\/p>\n\n\n\n
(o taip ir b\u016bna)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
duot\u0173 kibirk\u0161t\u012f naujam gyvenimo puslapiui,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
tarsi u\u017etekt\u0173,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kad jis, praeidamas pro \u0161al\u012f,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
trumpam paliest\u0173 mano nugar\u0105,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ar paklaust\u0173 visai paprastai:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201ekaip tu?\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ir nam\u0173 oras staiga pasidaryt\u0173 lengvesnis;<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tad \u0161ito lengvo skryd\u017eio metu<\/p>\n\n\n\n
a\u0161 niekada neb\u016bnu viena,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ir vargu ar tai b\u016bt\u0173 \u012fmanoma,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ar sugeb\u0117\u010diau<\/p>\n\n\n\n
atrasti savyje pakankamai j\u0117g\u0173,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
neleid\u017eian\u010di\u0173 pernelyg \u012fklimpti<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u012f susir\u016bpinim\u0105 savimi,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
per daug galvoti, kaip \u0161iandien jau\u010diuosi,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
k\u0105 valgysiu, kuo apsirengsiu,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kitaip tariant,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ry\u0161ys apsaugo nuo g\u0117dos,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nuo min\u010di\u0173 apie tai,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
k\u0105 pagalvos kaimyn\u0117,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kai a\u0161, miesto vidury,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
(taip pagalvot\u0173 ji)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
parkritusi ant \u017eem\u0117s,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
metaliniu kastuvu bandau i\u0161 kompostin\u0117s<\/p>\n\n\n\n
i\u0161krap\u0161tyti \u017eemes;<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kur taip matyta,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
sakyt\u0173 kita kaimyn\u0117,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
bet,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
bet tas ypatingas skrydis leid\u017eia<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nepaisyti noro<\/p>\n\n\n\n
atitikti j\u0173 tobulumo vaizdinius,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
moko pakilti auk\u0161\u010diau \u012fsipareigojimo<\/p>\n\n\n\n
tarnauti tiems,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kuri\u0173 vertyb\u0117s svetimos mano prigim\u010diai<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ir mano kuriamam pasauliui,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nes tikrame ry\u0161yje<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u017emogus trumpam i\u0161silaisvina<\/p>\n\n\n\n
i\u0161 savo siauro rato,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ir tada gali pamatyti daugiau,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
pla\u010diau,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
giliau,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ech, net dabar burnoje darosi saldu,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
o k\u016bnu teka pasitenkinimo bangos,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
vien pagalvojus ir prisiminus,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
koks \u0161is vidinis skraidymas<\/p>\n\n\n\n
yra reikalingas man,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u017emogui,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kuris vis dar bando u\u017eaugti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Deja,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ne visada pavyksta<\/p>\n\n\n\n
tokiame skrydyje i\u0161b\u016bti ilgai,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ir kartais u\u017e tai pykstu ant gyvenimo,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kod\u0117l taip sugalvota, kad \u017emogui,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
norin\u010diam skraidyti<\/p>\n\n\n\n
tarp to, kas traukia ar atstumia,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
tarp to, kas kuria ar griauna,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kod\u0117l taip sumanyta,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kad b\u016bt\u0173 reikalingas kitas \u017emogus,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kuris savo reakcija,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
mimika, pra\u0161ymu<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ar svajone<\/p>\n\n\n\n
tave tarsi paimt\u0173 u\u017e rankos<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ir kartu su savimi<\/p>\n\n\n\n
pakelt\u0173 vir\u0161 pabodusi\u0173 min\u010di\u0173,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
vir\u0161 buities,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nune\u0161t\u0173 tave \u012f kitok\u012f pasaul\u012f,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
i\u0161 kurio visi tavo r\u016bpes\u010diai<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ir nei\u0161spr\u0119stos problemos<\/p>\n\n\n\n
pasirodyt\u0173 visu savo gro\u017eiu,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
padr\u0105sindamos imtis i\u0161\u0161\u016bkio,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
o gal taip ir sumanyta,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
jog pasiprie\u0161inimas, persipyn\u0119s su trauka,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
sukurt\u0173 \u017emoguje harmonij\u0105,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kuri\u0105 jau\u010diant gyvenimas pasidaryt\u0173 \u012fdomus:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
staiga gamintum skan\u0173 maist\u0105,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
sodintum pomidorus,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
staiga net i\u0161m\u0117tyti batai prie dur\u0173<\/p>\n\n\n\n
atrodyt\u0173 ne kaip chaosas,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
o kaip \u017eenklas,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kad \u010dia verda gyvenimas,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
net skalbiniai rankose<\/p>\n\n\n\n
tapt\u0173 ne na\u0161ta, <\/p>\n\n\n\n
o dienos dalimi,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0161ypsotumeis da\u017cniau<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ir visk\u0105 darytum su tokiu lengvumu,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nes b\u016btum laisva,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
laisva nuo savo asmeninio intereso,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
geb\u0117tum matyti visk\u0105 tarsi i\u0161 \u0161alies:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ko i\u0161 tikro reikia namams,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kur tikrasis vaik\u0173 pa\u0161aukimas,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kokie yra mano pa\u010dios poreikiai,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ir tokio skryd\u017eio kuras,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
gaila, tik neseniai supratau,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
yra ne kas kita,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kaip siekis<\/p>\n\n\n\n
gyventi ne u\u017esidarius savyje,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
o tikrame ry\u0161yje,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
gyventi tarnaujant ka\u017ekam daugiau<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nei tik sau,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
atsiduodant tam,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kas prasmingiau,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kas naudingiau,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nes tik tada skrydis<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nevirsta pab\u0117gimu,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nevirsta vien jausmo med\u017eiokle,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
bet tampa kryptimi,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nors ir b\u016bna akimirk\u0173,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
prisipa\u017einsiu,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
kai toks skrydis ne\u012fvyksta<\/p>\n\n\n\n
arba nepavyksta jame i\u0161silaikyti ilgiau<\/p>\n\n\n\n
(tai normalu, juk a\u0161 ne Dievas),<\/p>\n\n\n\n
bet tomis akimirkomis<\/p>\n\n\n\n
a\u0161 lieku ant \u017eem\u0117s<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ne kaip nubausta,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
o kaip gr\u0105\u017einta ten,<\/p>\n\n\n\n
i\u0161 kur ir v\u0117l <\/p>\n\n\n\n
bus galima pakilti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u0161 ra\u0161ymo dirbtuvi\u0173 su Sandra Bernotaite<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Ka\u017ekam \u017eodis ,,skraidymas\u201d siejasi su sportu, adrenalinu ar kelion\u0117mis, ta materiali\u0105ja prasme, bet man, b\u016bnant tokiai itin atsargiai, bijan\u010diai auk\u0161\u010dio, kaip katinas vandens, skraidymas vyksta kasdien visi\u0161kai kitokiu, niekam nematomu b\u016bdu: i\u0161or\u0117je mano laikysena i\u0161lieka tokia pati – atsipalaidavusi nugara, rankos visada ka\u017ek\u0105 laiko, suka, judina, galva lengvai linksi, pademonstruodama, kad gird\u017eiu, kad a\u0161 \u010dia, 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